I haven't updated in forever. and do you know why?
It's because I have changed so much in the last years, constantly, that I feel like I let my readers and friends down, or perhaps, I have deceived them. Who am I? What am I doing? Where am I going? Why am I even where I am? I don't know. I thought I knew, a while ago. But that was foolish youth, or maybe just a stage. Or maybe I really did know back then, but as times passes, the answers change and if you don't keep up, you don't know them anymore.
Or maybe it's not even the answers at all that matter.
At times I felt like I needed a new blog. Somewhere neutral to post, where I could go back to the safety of anonymity and say whatever I felt like saying. But isn't that just rude to my friends, my family, and everyone else who read what I had to say and commented? I couldn't get past that thought, so I just stopped posting pretty much everywhere.
I started writing again recently, and reading Tarot. It felt good, and it made me realize how much I missed Vox. I considered just making a new Vox and trying as hard as I could stay under the radar and never get any comments at all. But I think that's pretty hard to do on Vox. In many way, it is the antithesis of Vox, which prides itself on its community and networking abilities.
So, here I am, again. Will you take me as I am?
PS post applies to LJ too, since I'll just cross-post most of them ;)